=The Song of the Discouraged Hopeful Scribe I've nothing new or great to say — It's all been said before today. No one am I, no one I'll stay,... Why won't these dreams just go away?
=Sighs My days are filled with wistful sighs, Fantasies and longing,
Half-whispered thoughts And sudden cries —
"Turn back!" My mind's warning. But, too late now — I've grown to care More so than would seem wise.
My mind holds back, My heart would dare...
At last, I'm left with sighs.
=Fragments
The Vow
Would you dare hurt me, my lover? Don't think I won't seek my revenge: Sneaking out under night's cover, Your treachery I shall avenge.
Incubus
My nights pass in a blur of shades, A vision comes, another fades: A glimpse of awe, a taste of fear. Nothing's quite as it might appear.
Incubus II
Capricious were his tender ways, So fiery and so cold; She walked enshrouded in a haze That did her soul enfold.
In Dreams
I've leapt and discovered that I could fly; I've felt love ardent that would never die; I've known dreams of lust that left me aching; And dreams of death that would leave me shaken.
=Snippets on Rhyming
i.
To pen a rhyme is much more fun Than freeform verse unmetered. But it takes thought to write each one — This task leaves me beleaguered.
ii.
Rhyming induces such a strange effect, A peculiar result in me. Maybe it's because the more I reflect, Better the fallacies I see.
iii.
What do I write for what it means, And how much is careless rhyming? It's little more than what it seems, And just as pointless as miming.
iv.
Everything I lately think, I think in silly rhymes. Then I think my wording stinks, And I'm just wasting time.
v.
Oh, I need to stop thinking in meters, I need to stop thinking in rhymes. But it's not like I have any readers, So I'll keep indulging in lines.
=all or nothing anything i've done in life i've done with flair and zeal. every act performed was rife with passion, always real. yet my repertoire is slim — my shows were somewhat few. i've but always followed whim; from work i often flew. motivation i do lack; true efforts have been rare. it's even said that i slack... too bad i do not care.
=Prayer to Aphrodite Inconstant you have always been, Yet still you have my trust; The odds that you'll remain are slim, But count on you, I must. I knew you'd be a fickle sort — Oh, I was warned of you! But how much longer can you thwart My hopes from coming true?
=
Curtain.
Epilogue
It was mostly frills and icing, Plastic garnishes on a cake. Though then I had found it pleasing, It strikes me now as rather fake. Perhaps I'd desired romance grand Or my own tragic tale of love. From the moment he held my hand, I'd casted him as my beloved. But substance was a rarity In that strange summer dream of mine. I'd written out Reality, And gave Illusion every line. And we both were willing players In this opera I'd created. Though our moods grew ever greyer, We both claimed to be elated. The truth was so very different From what we were then portraying. I knew he felt ambivalent; I knew not what I was saying. Huge, bright sparkling cerulean eyes, That had gazed at me so sweetly, Were little more than his disguise To hide his confusion neatly. And the kisses he had plied me, While enhancing the sense of awe, Were just his way to quiet me And my impending distaste thaw. In the end, it was only mist, A gossamer dream of passion. But while it merely was a tryst, I can't deny that it was fun.
A Cynical Summary
If he had only lived next door, I might have just deemed him a pretty bore. But since he'd hailed from 'cross the sea, He'd seemed such an exciting novelty.
A Fair Summary
Once, I was rather fond of him; That much I can't deny. To say I was in love with him? That may not be a lie. But love is such a tricky fiend; I know that much is true. What may have truly ardent seemed Might have been viewpoint skewed.
=Painfully Smitten (or: Inspired by D) Love is but a manacle, an iron maiden for the heart, A noose dangling from its pinnacle, a spray of poison darts, Hot rods searing out your eyes, a madd'ning roar that fills your ears, Your mind caught in a torturous vise and crammed with dreadful fears. Sense no more shall you possess: you will mainly know confusion. You will mindlessly obsess and be guided by delusion. And worst of all, Love's cruelest ploy is its overwhelming strength. So, don't expect to feel much joy during Love's god-awful length.
=Introspection
i.
What are my heartfelt wants? This is the question that most taunts — The challenge that most daunts — Unsolved riddle that most haunts — me.
ii.
I do not know, nor could I say, Why I am this peculiar way: Why can I never be content Unless I'm bathed in fresh torment? Why must I suffer to be calm? Pain seems to be my favored balm; It's what I seek when life goes well — I make my life a living hell. Wait, is that true? Do I inflict My own life with needless conflict? Am I really self-destructive? Or am I just not productive? Either way, I cannot foresee My embracing tranquility.
=Hard Truth When I had wanted him to learn the truth, I'd fled, though evidence unearthed Which he found and read — then he knew. And through this method cold and so uncouth, I thought another chance I'd birthed... But that nothing's changed is too true.